Ranting Of A K-Legged Girl

  All my life I have been teased. I knew for a fact there was a little atom of truth in every insult and the simple truth was that,  unlike most people, my legs weren't straight. I had knock kneed mostly referred to as 'K-leg'.

  Growing up it bothered me a little but being where I am today, I try not to pay attention to it though I admit I do get occasionally upset when I'm the subject of someone's ridicule.

  Having bow leg or K-leg isn't a disability, let's know that for a fact. Not having legs at all is a disability. So if you find yourself in my shoes, try not to beat yourself hard about it, some people have no legs, I can still walk but some people can't.

  Does it stop you from living or chasing your dream? That's a big question and the answer is NO well except you want it to. Despite being bullied about my appearance, after series of tantrums, hating myself and how I looked, I let it go.

  When it comes to my dreams,  I chase it with no reservation, with the totality of my heart. I don't stop until I reach my goal, even if I have to fall a thousand times because somebody thinks perhaps I'm not good enough or I'm slightly disable.

  I have contemplated having surgery in the nearest future but I gave up that thought just as fast as it came. I wasn't going to put my life on a knife just to make a change or succumb to being a victim of surgical carelessness. I'm just going to live my life the way I am regardless of what people think or say about me.

  I have only one life to live and I'm not about to waste it hating on myself,  wishing things were different when I could just live it up to the fullest. So whatever situation you find yourself in, I suggest you do the same.

Avoid Emotionally Unavailable Ex Trying To Come Back

  We all have that one ex that still have a special spot in our heart. It's so sad that most of them are the worst type of people to date in a relationship.

The Emotionally Unavailable
   Such people are very common in relationships, they make you fall in love with their mysterious personality,  you get entranced in their unpredictable ways and before you know it, you are deep in love, no turning back.

  You would be lucky if your relationship lasted months with such people. The beginning of the relationship might be rosy but soon you'll see your spouse drifting, no more regular calls, they get tired easily, they don't even say I love you. Whenever you want to hang out, they are either busy or visiting a family friend. 

  Before you know it, you are asking yourself if you are still in a relationship or not. Truth be told, relationships like this are toxic, you should never feel like you are the only one in love or you are not doing things right. If for nothing,  it's your partner's fault not yours. Then suddenly you find yourself single with a broken heart that might take months or years to heal or who knows you might never fall out of love with them. Just your shit ass luck (forgive my choice of words).

   And the moment you think you are close to getting back on track,  finally got over your ex or you are on the road to and you are finally learning how to be happy again,  they show up like a rat in your closet, you have no idea where they came from.

  My advice run! Run as fast as you can. Avoid keeping contacts, fuck being friends ( again forgive my choice of words) don't bother trying to get closure. Because emotionally unavailable people are quite good at manipulating. They are never sure about their feelings so they toss people about like a baseball, loving you on minute, dumping you the next.

   The moment you look for closure, they instigate a possible reunion and if you are a fool or hopelessly in love, you take the bait and it's like reliving the whole memory again. Only this time,  a part of you is clearly aware that you are being a fool but leaving you the choice to either remain a fool or say "Fuck love I'm done with this bullshit".

  Don't be a fool believing you are the one good enough to change the person. You might be good enough but don't stick around to be played, used and repeatedly dumped.

  Some exes come back just for sex, some come back just to fuck your perfectly good life while some come back the moment they see you have become the person they wanted,  the person you weren't months or years back.

    Why wait to be used as an experiment. You should let yourself be loved and loved right.  Never make it all about sex or money or physical features or whatever. If it doesn't benefit you or change you for the better,  let go and never look back.

  You are too good to be treated like thrash, never settle for less. Never!.